Reach the sky;

Monday, July 25, 2011

I think about my life before I met you and I think about now. I think about how much I miss our texts and just having that reassurance that you're out there but never too far from me. I think about how perhaps, you're really happier with her and how at the end of the day, I never really lost nor have I won. Decisions should be respected and you have obviously made yours very clear. I hope that she doesnt hurt you because I obviously still care about you, very much. I wish you had believe in what we had together, because it was good and we made each other happy.

Now, somebody please grant me the strength to deal with everything with as much maturity as I should have. Once again, I continue to tell myself that everything happens for a reason, good things fall apart so better things can fall together & that we do not forget, we just learn to deal with the loss.

And oh, friends, please dont ask me what happened, I do not want to talk about this anymore.

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“The wind assaulted my hair at 4:15 AM”

Saturday, July 23, 2011

I've never felt this much sadness ever, it is so difficult to handle because it is a feeling, you cant scratch at it, peel it off and make it go away. My chest hurts and I think this is my mind's way of dealing with it, emotional pain manifested into physical pain, just to have something that feels real. I have to have the talk with her tonight, let's hope that it goes well and I get some answers so I can be ready for a closure if it really comes to that.

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“The wind assaulted my hair at 8:47 AM”

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Girls like her would not fall for girls like me. Not when they can have anybody they want, well okay, almost anybody they want.

PMS-ing like crazzzyyyy~

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“The wind assaulted my hair at 4:30 AM”

Saturday, July 09, 2011

What I need to do now is to forget about those damn girls, especially her; and focus on things that are important, things that I enjoy.

I feel like I say this to myself all the time but I'm not doing it hmmm.

I SWEAR I'LL DO SOME PAINTING TONIGHT!

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“The wind assaulted my hair at 6:57 PM”

Night cycling provides a good opportunity to think about things. I think the moment when you speed down a slope, it's the closest feeling you can get to flying. The wind crashing against you & the whistling sound in your ears, almost deafening. The thrill of free falling (almost) and the teensy risk of crashing. I would ride up & down that slope near the Home Team chalet if I could, again & again, just to get that feeling of being... free.

Soo, obviously I was thinking about her as I pedaled mindlessly. I honestly dont know what we'll become, friends? Lovers? I dont understand why she can be jealous that I'm hanging out with other people one moment & then tried to get me interested in her pretty-but-straight friend in the other.

Girls are weird.

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“The wind assaulted my hair at 12:14 PM”

Monday, July 04, 2011