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Tuesday, July 03, 2012

what have i become.

girl's flying off to aussie in a week's time, our friendship is still in pieces, i still like her alot and i miss her company dearly.

the past half a year had been, well, i've been contented with spending time with her & dealing with schoolwork (which has always been a bitch). till i took a leap of faith & confessed and put everything on the line, now i'm left crying over spilled milk.

days have been mundane, going to places and events alone when i feel like i should be doing these things with her. my friends have been nice and buddy enough to accompany me on my ventures but it didnt feel the same. i love my friends, they really care about me and i'm damn thankful but, at the end of the day this void still cannot be filled up.

a music & visuals event this wed, asked her to go with me, have yet to receive any reply. i guess, i would just go alone because going with anyone else just feels inappropriate and accommodating which isnt what i want.

thinking about all these just makes me wanna sink into a hole until these feelings pass but i guess that's not possible. staying at home isnt helping, i need to be out wandering around and so that's what i've been doing.

what have i become.