"i'm not interested in your mind games", someone once said that to me. ...what even?! All I did was to invest everything in trying to keep her happy, and all I asked for is a bit of affection in return and suddenly i'm playing mind games?! lawl, what a joke. Anyway, I'm just glad I put that & her behind in 2011 cause if somebody is so skilled at making you feel miserable 87% of the time, then she aint a keeper.

The above paragraph is unrelated to the issue that drove me here but I thought I would just rant abit on the ridiculousness of some people.

Today, two emotions were intensely felt throughout the day, namely frustration and anger. Frustration stemmed from how helpless I felt when she (note: different from the her above arh, this one different girl) poured out her woes to me and all I can do was grimace at my screen & typed furiously in reply. I respect people who manages their long distance relationship well, I personally can never do it. How can I be okay or be able to accept the fact that someone I love is having a bad day & I cant even do the simplest act of comfort ie. to hug her??

Angry at her, because I just dont approve of how she's putting herself in a position where she can be hurt easily. Angry, also because I think she should just come back to me & be treated right. Angry, because I dont think she took my comment "i would date you actually" seriously.

Ranting completed. I dont know what I should do, what I can do even, but life goes on so I will keep calm & carry on.