I feel insane though it appears that this school term will be a relatively good one, despite being bogged down by tedious assignments as I've managed to insert myself into groups with people I like working with.

I feel insane because my dear good friend is leaving for America in approximately a month's time & she'll be away for 1.5months during which I'll have no one to go with me for poetry readings, plays/gigs, camp inside secondhand bookstores & be excited over a good find, or to trek through the urban jungle down to her house to lepak even at 11pm.

I feel insane because I've been spending so much of my time with this friend that I havent been meeting up with my other friends (I still love you guys okay) & bestfriend and everybody is busy and I'm busy and we all busy at different times so it's hard to meet up when everyone is busy at different times.

I feel insane because I like a girl too much, but she's too far away right now & I'm a worrier, I freak myself out with scenarios I imagined (though sometimes they are legit) and basically go into the flail-y arms state which degenerates into me, flopping somewhere on the ground & refusing to do anything. This might have been exaggerated but I think it helps paint a good visual image of my state of mind. Be safe there, anywhere, you trouble kid. Time is crawling towards July when I'll see your stups faise again.

Sometimes I think of the tarot reading I had a couple of months back & that makes me feel hopeful but realistically, that is like trying to hold on to smoke. Intangible.

There are many a things I wish for right now & damn you fairy godmother come leh, come turn my wishes into reality.