Reach the sky;

Tuesday, May 01, 2012

i tried to be brave about this, i plucked up courage & confessed. it wasnt the best of timings i suppose, but she needed to know that i care about her & i care about her very much. she needed to know that when she's done with her shenanigans in the States, she would have someone to come home to, someone who will be waiting for her, waiting to love her & make her happy again. i dont know how much she believes in that though, i like to think that, the fact i havent been given a "no" for an answer means i do get a chance. that there's a thin slice of hope. i tried to be nonchalant over the short responses i get from her on skype, but it's not easy to pretend to not care when in fact it does bother me a great deal. a million dialogues tripping over each other in my head, things that exist only when my eyes are closed & i could pretend it's all good. it's all good i say, it's all good. but meanwhile, i wait.