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Thursday, June 07, 2012

i was thinking that if i ever needed a timeline of my failures at love to refer to, this blogspot would be it. all those nights of being at my lowest and the only comfort would be spilling my lovesick guts out here. i'm even embarrassed to read those posts now. thank goodness this blogspot is as private as private gets ie. none of the friends i made after sec sch knows about this. so i guess it's okay if i be embarrassing here.

update on my love life (or the lack thereof): Girl had been ignoring my comments, remarks & only spoke to me briefly over very random things ytd. upon me mentioning that i would like to cook for her, and hence require her to meet me, she shut up like a clam again. umm okay. we used to kind of spam each other fb last time now it's like, i dont even exist anymore in her world, i would have thought at least i'm still a close friend after The Confession but nooooo, it's like i disappeared. umm okay.

i dont know how to feel at this point, i think being sad for so long has kinda numbed everything by now. it's really just, "ummm okay, i dont know what's going on, i dont know why you're like this, i want to talk to you about it but i feel like you're not up for such a talk right now so i guess i'll wait? or maybe i wouldnt wait. i dont know what to do." i suppose everything is just too overwhelming for her but it's not right to... deny my existence k.

fucked up lah.